Love...

Hmmm I don't evem know where to start. It's so crazy how this four-letter word has so much power in our lives. It's perhaps one of the most powerful words in all languages. Love is something we all need and want. But the sad part is how far people will go to get it. Right now I'm feeling so hurt and confused because I recently lost someone very important to me, behind something that has been wrongfully disguised as love. I know that everything happens for a reason but I cannot see beyond my pain. I do not understand why I had to lose someone so important to me. I feel so cheated and confused because I have never loved anyone so much and now they are gone. The very thought of everything that has happened in the past few days leaves me breathless. The thought leaves me in a deep state of confusion. This can't be happening, I feel like I'm in a dream. (I keep praying that I'll wake up soon).

How do you move from this place of sadness and confusion to a state of peace and happiness. Right now that transition seems impossible. I keep re-reading the words of the quote: If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it was always yours. I find a sort of comfort in these words, but I do not know if what I lost will ever come back to me, and that scares me. I know that if GOD brings me to it, then (s)he will certainly bring me through it. But, I just want this pain to end.

Learning how to let go is perhaps one of the most difficult lessons I have ever had to learn. I know my will is not GOD's will. And so I want so badly to do whatever it takes to get this person back into my life. But deep down I know that I should just let go and let GOD work. I will let GOD work. I pray for GOD's peace to rain upon me, because my spirit has withered up. My love has dissipated into sadness and other things. And my days have become filled with tears and constant chest pains.

GOD let your spirit of peace rain. Let your love swallow me. And allow your truth to free me...

I manifest Peace & Blessings